When I was doing my studies with the Institute for Integrative Nutrition in 2014 I realized that I had a block in my sexuality and needed to shift my self care, rituals and focus towards awakening my sexuality instead of only focusing on things like nutrition, exercise, using herbs and essential oils or manifesting and mindset.

Those things are still super important, because everything is connected and holistic and we can’t show up fully in our sexuality if our bodies, minds and hearts are not operating at full capacity. 

I know it’s not always easy to look at our sexuality, let alone bring ritual self care into it. ​

Sex was the last thing I looked at and I only really looked at it because I had no choice. The divine had been leading me to the metaphorical water for my entire life, but they couldn’t make me drink it…until I was so tired of suffering that it hurt me more to stay the same than to change.  

I had vaginal numbness and tension, pain during sex, especially deep near my cervix, stress incontinence and I felt like something was missing….like I was turned off and invisible all of the time. 

I would look at women who seemed radiantly sexual and feel like I was somehow missing the gene, even though I remembered feeling sexually alive as a small child. Those memories felt like a past life. 

When I was doing my studies with IIN we had to do this exercise called the Wheel of Life where you rate how fulfilled you feel in each area of your life. I remember scoring really low in the sex section of the wheel. 

Having to be that honest with myself was excruciatingly painful, because I realized that my under-active sexuality — which was hidden, repressed and filled with shadows and fears — was affecting every single area of my life and I didn’t even know it.

I was in a tumultuous relationship that was on and off for six years with a person who wanted me to feel disempowered. Who cheated on me time and time again. Who didn’t want me to talk to any of my guy friends or go out or do anything that felt like it was my choice. 

He told me sex wasn’t important so every night I would lie next to him, crying and wondering if I’d ever have more. If I’d ever have the courage to give myself more. 

After that relationship ended I was quickly in another relationship and I realized that I was terribly insecure and he had erectile issues that only made me realize that something was up with my own sexuality. 

My finances were a mess and I often had to borrow money from people – my mom, dad, sister and ex-boyfriend. 

I worked in a corporate job that made me feel like I was dying inside…every. single. day. 

When I had the courage to look at my sexuality, everything changed. My daily rituals began to shift. My self care became a ritual and practice devoted to coming back home (again and again) to my erotic nature. 

This epiphany ultimately lead me to my sexual self care rituals and devotional erotic practices over the past four years. ​

It’s been a journey over the past four years and now I’m weaving more magic into my journey as I navigate how to stay connected to my sexuality and erotic self, my ritual self care, while also being a mother, lover, partner, business owner, creatress, woman, sex witch, etc. 

I’m going to share the intimate sexual self care rituals…the devotional erotic practice and ritual magic…that I typically practice daily to connect to my sexuality and stay connected to my erotic self throughout my day and life. 

As I mentioned in the video, there are 7 elements I try to weave into my rituals, which are breath, touch, sound, breasts, movement, presence & awareness and pelvic relaxation and pulsation.

We’re exploring these 7 elements in depth in my free 7-day orgasmic pleasure challenge, which is a challenge designed to help you expand your pleasure into whole body orgasms.

You can sign up for that here. It’s only available for a limited time. 

Follow me on my backup/new Instagram account @AMBERRLEITZ.

With love,

Amber

P.S. In a few days I’ll give you a playful peek into what this actually looks like for me. Me in my bedroom doing my rituals.