I remember the first time I was called a slut in Jr High school. It was a rumor spread by my alleged best friend who said that I had been fingered in a hot tub by some random dude on summer break.

I was 15.

What was actually true about that situation? I had been in a hot tub, he did try to finger me and I didn’t give him permission. It didn’t happen.

Sure, I’d kissed him and even flashed him…all signs that my inner slut had a pulse…a life line.

But I also knew what I was NOT willing to do, which was let him finger me. I wasn’t ready for that with him.

During summer break, I told her the whole story and she decided to spread rumors about me at school.

I think she did it for a few reasons, but I’ll never really know…

She and I had been “frenemy best friends” (we had a VERY toxic friendship, one that actually included me being tormented by her and her mother) for a few years until my actual best friend — since we were in diapers — moved back home.

I stopped hanging out with my frenemy best friend as much, because she was a terrible friend and she was VERY expressed in her slut…but she used it against others, including me. She constantly made me feel bad about how I looked in comparison to her, flirted with my boyfriends and treated me like her ugly sidekick.

I think she felt jealous that I was no longer hanging out with her and she wanted to get back at me…you know the kind of manipulative, viscious things that teenage girls are unconsciously taught to do to one another.

Either way, it doesn’t matter. Being called a slut and having a rumor spread about me when I’d only been back to school after summer break for one day…made me feel dirty, bad and wrong.

I felt like boys only wanted me because they thought I’d give it up to them.

I felt betrayed by another woman.

I shut down my sexuality. I repressed my “slut” archetype and for years I swung from one end of the pendulum to the other.

Embodying my slut in an unhealthy, unsconscious expression to get love and attention from the boys at school or repressing my sexuality and feeling so shut down and afraid of my inner slut that I felt like a total prude.

Now I have a very healthy relationship with my inner slut. I let her come out and play in safe erotic containers, both in private and public…with myself and with my lover, Andy, which I share in this week’s video.

If you’ve ever slut shamed another person or been slut shamed yourself or judged someone/yourself for your sexual expression, then this video is going to be key for you to fully welcome the slut back home…in the most pleasurable way.

RESOURCES MENTIONED IN THIS VIDEO:

• Are You Hiding Who You Are in the Bedroom? Reclaiming Your Eroticism Podcast Episode
• How to Seduce Your Lover Video
• Sacred Slut Spotify Playlist
• Sacred Slut 2 Spotify Playlist
• 5 Signs That You’re Sexually Repressed Video

Sign up for my 4-Part RECLAIMING YOUR EROTICISM Video Series here for a taste of how to use self role play to integrate your shadows and all parts of your eroticism — like your slut archetype.

If you want to go do deeper into connecting with your inner slut (and other erotic archetypes)…check out my 12-week program DEEPLY EROTIC.

We’ll be diving very deep into self role play in Deeply Erotic, because I use self role play solo and partnered as one of the biggest things I do in my eroticism to integrate the parts of myself that I don’t identify with or that I’m hiding, repressing or expressing in an unhealthy way. I believe every single archetype/role/shadow  — INCLUDING the slut — has their own gift that can only be accessed and unlocked when you’re willing to look at it and begin to integrate it.

Each archetype has its own superpowers that you can channel into your eroticism and your life. My slut plays a big part in being able to be seen, fucked and LOVED to my absolute core and give that right back to my partner or myself.

She also influences my ability to show up and be provocative in my work in a way that gets my message across and wakes you the fuck up so you can remember how erotic you are and take action on that.

DEEPLY EROTIC is a 12-week group coaching program on how to shed sexual shame, embrace your sexual shadows, unlock your deepest erotic desires and connect back to your true erotic nature, power & pleasure.

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With erotic love,

x

Amber

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